A Breakup Ballad.

If you're looking for a good breakup song, just turn on Owl City Pandora station.

You'll get Safetysuit, OneRepublic, Lifehouse, The Killers, Parachute and of course Owl City.
There are occasional upbeat songs, like Florence's "Shake It Out". But for the most part, they're cheesy romantic, make you wanna cry with a glass of wine songs.

I guess it doesn't necessarily have to be a breakup you're going through. It could just be a change in your life that you weren't expecting or weren't planning for. It just leaves you wondering so many "What ifs…" Or maybe you were planning for it. But that doesn't make the grass look browner anywhere else.

You still wonder. You still look at that one thing and it reminds you of all the good times you had and that you don't want to leave it behind. You still hear that one song and think about what good times you had when that song was playing - like the soundtrack to your lives. You still use a trick that you learned and think how much more you could've learned and grown if you would've worked just a little harder. You still wonder.

And then all this sappy music plays and it makes it worse. And you just want to snuggle with your best friend and drink wine and just forget that there's ever difficulty in life.

But then something good comes along.
And you just ride that high, knowing you can't change the past. And even though the past hurts and it blurs your vision of the good in front of you, you made that decision for a reason. And you're going to be ok. You still wonder. But you've thought about this decision and you know it's what's best.

For now.
For now you still wonder.
But you do what you set out to do.
And you can't look back, cause that does nothing for you.
You just go.
Head first.
Head strong.
While listening to Owl City on Pandora.

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